I’ve posted one form of this or another to most websites where I have a profile, but I feel like I owe a slightly extended edition for my own personal website.
A quick look at my history on this site, or DA, or Facebook, or anything really, will show that I go through extended periods where there isn’t any posts or activity, interspersed with intense periods of lots of activity. I always tried to brush it off as being busy with work, or study, or life in general, but the whole truth of the matter is that it was always a mental health thing. All my life I’ve dealt with periods where I just had no motivation, no interest, no enjoyment from things I’d really enjoyed the weekend before. It’s never really been too much of a hindrance… it never lasted particularly long and it was never such a deep chasm, and I typically chalked it up to just having an “off” week or something.
The main bullet point to this story is that the last couple of times I’ve crashed into one of these periods, it’s been really bad. Bad enough that I’m going to do something about it and get some help.
The road to recovery, given the nature of the problem, and the fact that I can’t even really define it, is going to be a long one. So, I’m not going to make any promises about frequency of posting, or anything like that. I’m not going to actively stay away from posting, shooting, chainmailling, etc, but at the same time, I’m going to focus my attention on getting better as a priority, so whether I have the time to do these things is the question.
I’m also not going to share my journey here, this post is only to let it be known that I haven’t just abandoned the site or the internet. I will be back, I just don’t know when.
Thanks in advance for your understanding.